pink.elephants.black.roses

these times I'm fine, I've never been better

but I can't help constantly wonder why am I pregnant, why am I the one who's pregnant

I just don't get it when I really think of it

If I could go back in time and change it, because I've been just stupid

I'm waiting anxious for my son, that's not the point...

I'd just wish I wasn't so stupid

I want to be a good mom :( and I feel like I already failed